12 years ago
Sunday, August 7, 2011
You know, it's a funny way of saying hanging out with my family, because most people will mean hanging out with their frens or buds. But i guess that is just how me and my sis normally do. Well, me, becuase i seldom hang out with my frens. It's not that i dont have any frens to hang out with, it's just i choose to hang out with my family more.
I feel very very comfortable if im out with my family, because i dont have to act like someone else, i can just be me and we jokes and laugh like there is no tomorrow. But if i'm with my frens, some of them might not like how i express myself.
I hung out with some of my highschool frens, well, mostly to gatherings, but i don't seem to find the connection with them. There are always talking about things, i have no clue about, or they are talking about someone i don't even know, coz many of them work together in a company. So i'm mostly the odds one out.
It makes me feel kinda miserable coz i feel awkward with my highschool frens. They are all nice people of course, maybe it's just our differences and how we think and act is not the same.
Surprisingly i can actually mendle with my other group of frens from college and work pretty well. But the funny thing is, im a Chinese and i find it more comfortable with my Malay frens than my chinese frens and i have no idea why. I always try my very best to join in, but it just feel more awkward afterwards.
Which is why sometimes, i feel like i dont belong with them. But i want to be with my frens and hang out. I just dont understand why it normally dont work for me.
But im happy with my family. They always make my day and i always have a great time with them. And i notice i always laugh alot when Shely and Shala is there. They are silly together and they entertain me while im like the audience listening to their silliness and laughing alone at the corner. Im not the only one, Stephen is also the audience most of the time.
Anyway, life is meaningful for me at the moment with everyone around to make me laugh and cry and feel all kinda emotions and i'm very happy to have all of the people around me~
Which is why sometimes, i feel like i dont belong with them. But i want to be with my frens and hang out. I just dont understand why it normally dont work for me.
But im happy with my family. They always make my day and i always have a great time with them. And i notice i always laugh alot when Shely and Shala is there. They are silly together and they entertain me while im like the audience listening to their silliness and laughing alone at the corner. Im not the only one, Stephen is also the audience most of the time.
Anyway, life is meaningful for me at the moment with everyone around to make me laugh and cry and feel all kinda emotions and i'm very happy to have all of the people around me~
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